Most of the time, I dislike christian music. Not for what they say, or for the lord god on high they worship. But, they speak of never giving up, and never giving in. Of going through it all and still able to go on. Most of the ones I have looked into, haven't been through much.
Sure, lost a friend, or a loved one. But, to me, that happens to everyone. But, to people like me, who have been through quite abit, for example, in the last two years alone, I lost the one I looked up to like an older brother, I blamed his death on myself. It took getting hit by a truck to make me realize how close death is. Since then, I have had three people betray me within a week, several friends I have had to talk out of suicide, and my heart torn right open by a relationship, and even now the option of heart surgery, and in all I am growing closer for it has made me stronger then ever in my faith.
That strength, can't come from just worshiping. The deciples went through more then any of us can imagine, and their faith only grew. It takes suffering to know your own strength. The flames of trouble to temper the blade that is our faith.
That, is why your music appeals to me. Yes, your lyrics are good, but it is the very fact you have been through more then most can imagine, that I can feel the strength of your very faith behind it.
So, in the end, congradultions on doing what few else can. On making music that can stop me dead in my tracks, and make someone nearly twenty years old to break down and worship.
And I will continue to pray up until in two weeks time, I know whether or not I need surgery, and on the days that follow, until he calls me home.
